Paleo adventures!

Well I have been at this Paleo "thing" for awhile now and I have had some serious mis-steps like eating gluten yesterday because I did not prepare any food at a meeting that I went to. I now know that I am gluten sensitive for SURE. I was bloated, I got a super mega headache from hell, I was very very lethargic, and I just didn't want to do anything but sleep. I went to my bible study yawning and it is not really normal for the person that I have been. What did I eat? Oh ya know pasta and one hella good chocolate chip cookie and 3 mini eclairs. I am totally the kind of person that is like well if I already messed up might as well top it off ha ha. That is NOT the mentality to have trust me because I felt like garbage afterwards and SO guilty it wasn't even worth it!

It takes 2 weeks to get gluten out of your body so basically I have to start over......super fail right? To a degree yes, but I learned something that I am intolerant to gluten and I was able to FEEL what food actually did to me.  I know salt from processed food is killer on my weight and makes me gain at least 3 pounds in one sitting. That's terrible if you asked me! I am coming to a point where if my clothes fit I am fine though I don't really weigh myself until things start fitting me "not right" and I am typically right about my being heavier. Anyway back to the Paleo

I have found that through this process I have been more creative in the kitchen but I still make a lot of mistakes in regards to this new lifestyle and the choices that I make outside of my home. I think the grace period of trying it out is over and I have to decide if this is what I am going to do or not. Mostly for my sanity and I know that the answer is yes I am going to stick with it. I felt (before yesterday) that I was at my optimal health. I have made a few recipes on my own which I am super stoked about and I feel that I have dipped my toes in the water long enough to say that this is the way that I want to go and what solidified that for me the way BLOAT that I am carrying today and how I ballooned so bad that I had to unbutton my pants which is something I have not done in a very long time. 

Next week I am going to start the Whole 30. 

It is a "program" that helps you get your nutrition on track and help heal you from the inside out. I was going to start on October 1 and that makes a lot of sense to me but the sooner I do this and go through with it the better it will be for my sanity. Just be determined and get it done right? If you are interested in doing it let me know in the comments and I can hook you up with everything that you need to do it! I would be so excited to have some buddies around.

Ultimate Reset Final Review

I did it! I conquered it and it is DONE! I lost a total of 7.8 pounds and 7.4 inches all over my body which is pretty decent for a girl who thought she has nothing to lose.

I want to clarify that I did not do this to lose weight but to experience the process so that I could recommend it to those that are interested in doing the Ultimate Reset and to have overall good health for myself. Weight loss was just a side effect of living a 100% clean life and when you are eating fruits and vegetables for 2 and a half weeks weight loss will happen I don't care who you are.

Was I happy to see a flatter belly and the cellulite disappear from my thighs HELL yeah I would be lying if I said no. I also did this to go vegetarian and see if I would enjoy it and I will go into all of that here on this post....it may be a long one so if you aren't interested in the reset I think you should just stop reading :)

Ok so I started this thing with super high hopes. I knew that I was going to feel like crap for the first few days and my diet was going to change into a vegetarian then vegan diet. I saw and looked over the book read the material over and over and I was totally positive. So what did I like?

I loved that;

I had portions that were filling
I was able to try new foods
I was not starving
I had a schedule that didn't change
I ate healthful foods and didn't just have a liquid diet
There was variety
The options for different food choices and menu switching
the way I slept
The way my face cleared up
I was able to try new things that I never thought that I would want to try anymore.


What I didn't like;

The variety (I know I said I liked it but at the end I was eating the same foods)
Being cold ALL the time.
No leeway for a cheat meal or combining Week 1 menu with Week 3 per say
That I had to change my whole entire life for this
The emotional feelings I felt
The length of time
I couldn't workout


After the middle of week 2 I was OVER this thing. I didn't want to eat any of the food and I just wanted to rebel.This probably had more to do with the fact that my son and husband were eating fish sticks, french toast, man and cheese in my face along with sweet treats. Even though I normally wouldn't eat those things the fact that I couldn't because of this program made it a real mind game for me.

I knew everything that I needed to do prior but I hit a wall. I was tired of eating fruit every single freaking morning since week one and a freaking microgreen salad every day for lunch. I wanted flavor because the food was bland but every time I wanted to give up I thought about the benefits that I was having despite the fact that I wanted to quit. It was purely mind over matter.

I also realized that this was just TOO strict for me and being someone that was already small I didn't really need that kind of structure to a degree. I was pretty happy with the weight loss that I had achieved but am glad that this pushed me more toward a cleaner lifestyle overall. I don't crave sugar as much and caffiene either so my coffee and super candy cravings are over. The processed food cravings are also gone and I truly crave more natrual foods. Even though I didn't crave meat I wanted to eat it right away as I found out through this process that I am not mentally ready to be a full on vegetarian just yet, I need more time but have given up pork and red meat for good. To think about it I don't really want to put a label on myself anymore truthfully, I want to eat what I want to eat and be classified as JEANNETTE not Jeannette the vegetarian or vegan just Jeannette a pretty cool girl that loves her family, friends, health and fitness ;)

So enough of the Negative NancyRevelation stuff, I really did like trying new things, and learning more about the discipline that I carry on my own accord. I did miss a lot of things but I knew that this was temporary. I would recommend this to other people ONLY if they were READY like REALLY READY to start a new weight loss regimine and/or stuck on a plateau. I would recommend it to someone who wants to try a vegetarian diet and lastly I would recommend it to someone who has the support and someone to do it with them.

Doing this Reset with my cousin was a blessing for me and I totally would have quit had I not had her cheering me on the way that she did and I am totally grateful to her for that! We both agree that working out or lack thereof was the worst thing that could have come of this but we take our workouts more seriously now and have our head in the game.

Would I do it again? Simply put no. I went through it did it but I like the freedoms that I have with eating and maintaining my weight but this gave me a good solid base to come back to when I find myself not fitting into my clothes.

I will post pictures and final stats later this weekend. This week and last week was super crazy for me. I have Bible study and duty and had it last week too so me taking the time to write this was blah.....crazy!!!

Ultimate Reset Day 6

Today was a pretty eventful day! It was full of frazzle brain craziness. I woke up and felt great I still have that pain in my back but it is going away.

Baked tempeh.......it was really really dry. I used other peoples suggestion and marinated it overnight and the taste was great but wow my mouth was like the Sahara Desert LOL wow I broke the rules and I drank water with my breakfast. FYI you are not supposed to drink water with your meals because it disrupts the persons dogestive juices and messes with digestion. Anyway it was pretty okay I just didn't really like that it was dry. I have another try tomorrow at it so we shall see.


I totally worked out today.......You are not supposed to workout on the Reset BUT I am in the military and I had to do my PT test. I tried to schedule it before the Reset and no one was able to do it for me for me until today. But I did a great job on it despite feeling tired through out the whole thing. I ran 1.5 miles in 12:20, 40 push-ups, and 82 sit-ups. I felt SOOOO tired for the rest of the day and can totally understand why they say not to workout.

Second bust of the day I forgot my quinoa salad and at WAYYYYY late I had breakfast at 6:20 and lunch at 1:15 craaaazy, but I had to do what I had to do and it is what it is and I can say that I am glad that today is over lol

Dinner was rather interesting to. I ate beets for the first time, I am not really that much of a fan but at the same time it was sweet so it cured my sweet cravings. :) I thought I was going to love this meal because so many people have spoken so highly of it but eh it was ok. I would make it again just not really have it in the regular rotation. There was also a zucchini cashew soup....eh I wasn't a fan of that one it tasted like cashews, it makes me think that I did something wrong but I didn't lol.

I ended up waiting so long for lunch because of my workout and it spiked my metabolism and because I forgot 1/2 my lunch I was famished and totally ready for snack and I felt really low and hungry just really icky and I can tell you that I will never do that again with the way I felt after the workout it totally solidified the fact that I was still cleansing and will be and it is my time more than ever take a break and enjoy the rest of this process. 

So, needless to say today was not the best day on the reset but I managed to get through it, eat all my meals and be okay. I am pooped but I will be okay tomorrow is another day and this day that happened was just life! I can't wait to weigh in! I feel lighter and more alert and I know that the scale isn't everything but the whole circle of the measurements, pictures, and the weight will all be great! I can see the changes all around!

Ultimate Reset

Well the time has come and I couldn't be more excited! I am starting the Ultimate Reset with my cousin tomorrow. It's her birthday and she wanted to get into a healthier lifestyle for herself on her 31st! I can say that I am so happy to be doing it with her.

I planned to do the Ultimate Reset when it came out last year but I was moving and didn't think that it would be the best of ideas. When we settled I thought about it again but then the holidays came and then my wallet was recovering. About a month ago it went on sale for 140.00 coach price so I JUMPED on the deal and bought it. My cousin went in with me and we were like better now than never! We set our date for tomorrow and we have been hyping each other up every day texting each other and what not getting ready to go. I did have a massive meal of Chinese food, for the past week I have been self sabotaging myself with eating VERY unhealthy because the "restriction" was coming so I had to "get it out" of my system........needless to say I feel like garbage and am looking forward to this healthy beginning.

I did my measurements and took pictures which I will post tomorrow or something, I do not feel like uploading the pictures tonight but I will account my day to day progress here on the blog for you all to read my "A Day In The Life Of A Resetter" and so that I can come back to this and read my journey.

Many people do this to lose weight and that is seriously NOT what I am doing it for. I love where I am weight wise but it is going to be cool to know that I am going to set my body to a less toxic state and I really want to be able to get rid of my little addictions to things like sugar and caffeine. I also want to know what things my body is not tolerable of such as certain grains and things like that. I know weight loss is going to be a "side effect" of treating my body extremely well but that is not my goal here. I am comfortable in my sz 4 and I like the curves that I have :) Here are my stats.

Mid thigh:    19.25 (L)    19.25(R)
U. Thigh       21.25 (L)     21.5 (R)
Hip                  37
Bellybutton     31
Natural waist  27
Chest              32.5
Arm (L&R)    10


I am guestimating my weight between 121 and 122 that is where I always hang around at, I will try to remember to take a pic of my weight tomorrow and post that as well. :) HERE WE GO!!!!!!

P90X Island Pork Tenderloin

This was by far my most favorite recipe out of the whole P90X journey that I was on in 2011. I would like to share it with those of you that are looking for new recipes. 

16 oz Pork tenderloin,
.5 tsp salt
.25 tsp pepper,
.5 tsp chile powder
.5 tsp ground cumin
.5 tsp cinnamon
.25 c brown sugar
.5 tbs fresh garlic, finely chopped
.5 tbs Tabasco sauce

1. Preheat pven to 350
2. stir together salt, pepper, chile powder, and cinnamon, then coat pork with spice rub.
3. heat oil in a skillet over moderately high heat and brown pork, turning, about 4 minutes.
4. Stir together brown sugar, garlic, and tabasco and pat onto top of tenderloin. place pork in a roasting pan and cook in the oven for 20 minutes or internal temp of 170. 

Superbowl Salsa

I love the Superbowl but not really for the game. More for the commercials, kickoff, half time show and the FOOD. I am competing and I think my days of cheats are over :( SO I am going to go out with a bang because tomorrow starts my prep, but hey the sooner I get it done the sooner I can go back to my normal healthy life. I know that many are going to use this as their cheat day too and that's ok I mean come on who isn't going to eat wings or some healthy version of them! Ha! Anyway I decided that I am going to post my favorite salsa recipe along with my veggie pizza recipe but I will post that later once I am able to grab some pictures of it. Here is the recipe. This is more like the salsa that you would see at a traditional Mexican restaurant.

1 can crushed tomato
1 cup cilantro
1 onion
2 jalapenos you can also use the canned ones and make sure to add some of the juices into it.
3 cloves of garlic
1-2 tsp salt (to taste start slow and add more as necessary)

Blend all of these ingredients into a food processor and chill for about an hour before serving.

Enjoy!!!!

Sunday Session @ CS Fitness!!!!

OH MY GAHHHHHHHH! I woke up at 7 AM this morning made my breakfast and started the 1 hour voyage to the Cathy Savage Studio! WOW! I was all riddled with anxiety at what the girls looked like, if they were going to be snooty, or just look at me like SHE wants to compete?! I guess sometimes when you see the beauty that is on the stage you get kind of FREAKED out because there is this "unsaid" thing that pretty, skinny girls are snobs. I totally fell into judgment but more for myself. Well I walked in all shaky (I know I am silly) and I said hello saw Cathy right away and signed in! THIS girl had to shake her hands a bit to write on the paper LOL.

So at first it was like being in an elevator where you are looking around trying to avoid people and eye contact. One of the girls said hello to me and we hit it off right away and I felt so much more at ease. She told me about her first competition after the birth of her son and how I am starting at a good place and what not. THEN we started!

It was all good at first a few sprint drills, walking up and down the gym much like they are in the video. Then it was ALL IN THE LEGS! HOLY CULO! It was intense! I thought I was going to get sick one time! I wouldn't let myself do it. 1.) The other girls weren't and 2.) I am competing against some of these girls. NO WAY I am going to WIN! ha ha ha! Maybe not really but I pride myself in my fitness and I am NOT going to give up even though for real I wanted to sit the hell down and breath! WOWZA is all I can say. So check this out! This chick is tricky! She almost cools us down right (I can breathe again) and then we start on freaking squat thingies and lateral hops to the side and plie squats in bouces OH MY LORD my legs were not thinking at that point! SHEESH she got me good! ha ha ha!

Then it was off to posing. I had more fun there and realized THIS is what I am here for! TO get in the best shape of my life, get into those heels and rock the HELL out of that swimsuit for myself and the people that are watching me! I realized right there and then when I saw myself walk that I wanted this! No more skipping meals, no more not planning. I am IN THIS I am going to freaking compete and be a ROCKSTAR!!!! I am so excited that I found this team and glad to be a part of such wonderful women!!!!!! AMAZING!

Les Mills Week 4 DOWN

Well today was the last day of week for Day 28 but next week would have been thirty but I went strong for 4 weeks.

I ate like POOP in the month of October. I mean I ate well a lot but most of the time I fell off the wagon with candy, Chinese food, candy, fish and chips, beer, soda......you get the picture. I always picked up right where I left off before I ate the bad foods that I did but I felt like I went haywire if you know what I mean. October was the month of indulgence for me. I will leave it at that, but maintaining my weight loss will always keep me on my toes and I will always evaluate what I have done for the day, week, and month and make adjustments. I think that when I started running my metabolism spiked and I went for what was quick and easy most of the time like having a microwave meal because I was too lazy to make my lunch in the morning. This month will be all about changing the bad habits and getting back on track.

So here are my Les Mill Pump 30 day results.

I am up 2.4 pounds. I had wine last night my weight was hovering at 121 for a few weeks so I am convinced that I gained a pound but it's ok. I lost three inches total, the only place I did not lose inches was in my waist and hips they stayed the same so it is better than gaining anything right? I don't fell that I look any different though. I wrote everything down so that you all could see it.

I am ready to get onto the next phase. Pump challenge is a good workout but doing only that three times a week gets pretty boring......in the same respect I think it is because Beachbody is KNOWN for having 13 discs and having you change your disc every day for the 5-6 days that it has you work out so essentially you aren't really doing the same workout all the time........but I pushed through and knew that it was temporary so I am happy with my results :) I wasn't delusional in thinking that I was going to look better I was actually surprised at the 3 inches lost!

Oh one more thing. I did go up in weight. I started with 10-15 pounds and now I am hanging out at 20-25 pounds and the 25 is going to the squat and back section :) I am really happy with that so I am def getting stronger and that is pretty amazing!!!!!

Until next time! :)

Hurricane Sandy and my 5K pictures

Well since I live in he Cape Cod/Boston area we were advised to take today off. Well work gave us the day off but my husband had to go into work and it is pretty boring. I am not going to run today since it is disgusting out, but I did my Pump and it was great to get some muscle failure work in there. I really like the program but I am bummed that I am starting Week 3 over again but it's all good they are 20 and 30 minute workouts :) 

So my day was pretty un-eventful. I have been home all day, I danced with my kiddo to some Adele. I edited some pictures for a friend of mine. She got not so great newborn shots so I wanted to take a stab at editing some of them so that killed some time. I read the Bible, listened to some Joyce Meyer and studied the references that she made in her speaking. I also did flash cards with my kiddo we made a game out of it and I found some of my running pictures online. I have to say that I look like utter doggy poo running but for my sake I am going to keep it as I didn't sleep well the night before and truthfully I didn't. So here you go some pictures of my run yesterday. :) Next time I will throw on some make up ha ha ha ha! 

I hope you all have a wonderful day! I think I am going to go watch Hart of Dixie. Anyone else watch that show? It is slowly turning into my guilty pleasure :D 

5 miles and Les Mills

Yesterday I went out for a 5 mile run. I don't know what got into me but I wanted to see if I could do it. Well in my neighborhood I have a 2.6 mile road that leads out of the neighborhood so I did that. It was pretty chilly so I waited until it was 10 so that way it would be warmer. I got out there decided to ditch my jacket in my car and go. That was boo boo #1!!!! WOW it was FREEZING OUT THERE! I had a head wind and whew I sure did know it! My hands were red and everything was just COLD.

The next boo boo was when I turned on my runkeeper and tried to adjust my music and my stupid iPhone just TURNED off with more than half the battery.............WTF! Gosh! I was HEATED so needless to say I wanted to turn the heck around get my jacket get in the car and run over the dang phone! HA HA. I don't have anger issues or anything. About a mile into the run I saw another runner and was entertained with trying to reach her but my crazy head didn't realize that the route I gave myself had hills upon hills upon hills! WITH A HEADWIND and if you are a runner you KNOW that kind of sucks ha ha ha! All I could think about was the fact that I am a Bad Ass Barbie for doing it LMAO! SO I got out there and pack and noted the time that I left and came back and I ran the 5.2 miles in 48 minutes which left me at a 9.13 pace which I thought was AMAZING because of the hills and the headwinds not to mention the cold! I was super excited about that!!!!!

While I was at the running store on Friday, the guy mentioned workout gear that wicks the moisture away from you and I had bought some socks and I was interested in getting some clothes because if I am going to run in the cold than I may as well get some good gear that wouldn't drown me in sweat so I went on eBay and let me tell you even on there it isn't cheap! I did end up winning 2 pairs of pants for about 30 bucks for both and I was LOOKING for them and then I went to Target picked up their Champion jacket and a pair of pants and a shirt and that cost me 68 bucks for all three pieces needless to say I am DONE! UGH! ha ha ha! If I do things I like to do them right and if it was summertime I probably wouldn't have invested in them I am just deathly afraid of being cold LOL. WHY do I live up North again?!?!?! Oh yeah because of the USCG but whatever ha ha!

Les Mills Day 5 was today and it was Pump Challenge again......20 minutes and that's it. Flow was fun I did that yesterday too and I will probably do it again tomorrow just for some extra stretching I have Hardcore Abs tomorrow I hear that is a tough one.....I am intimidated I hate AB work by the way. just because I am fit doesn't mean I have to like everything right? Tomorrow I am going to run another 5 miles and then do the hard core abs with the flow. I am going to watch Joss Stone tomorrow with a friend so I know that means I am going to eat out and what not so I may as well get the calories in LMAO!

Hope you had a great weekend!!!

If the shoe fits!

When I started running in Alaska I was doing pretty well until I ran a Fourth of July 10K. I never really trained on hills and I was the kind of person that just jumps first and never gives too much thought into the things that I want to do if I really want to do them. Well there were hills on this 10K and I seriously hadn't run anymore than 4 miles on the treadmill and I was big headed and thought that it was JUST a run! How harmless could that be? What a fail! 

I ended up going down hill for about a quarter mile and totally didn't pace myself and KILLED my shins! I was out of commission for about 2 weeks. I went to medical and they gave me an appointment with a foot person who gave me show inserts and the works. I saw a physical therapist but she didn't really help me much but she did fit me for my inserts. I started looking online and noticed that my feet overpronate and I needed to get fitted for shoes.....well Kodiak is a small island look below.....

 So I told myself that if I ever got into running again (In AK I had big dreams for running a half marathon and local races) that I would go to a running shoe store. Well I found one in Plymouth and I went there yesterday for a shoe fitting. I ran on the treadmill and that went well......weird. My feet over pronate like I thought they did. That means that my ankle takes a lot of the impact and it goes inward to receive all of the energy. My feet then SWING out when I run ha ha ha it looks so funny because my stride is right one and then WHOOP my leg flies to the outside. It is the most hysterical thing that I have ever seen and something that I am going to try to work on but for now I am glad that I got some good shoes. 

So the guy was awesome he came by with 5 pairs of sneakers. He told me that I would have to size up! OMG I THOUGHT I was a size 6.5 well NO I am a 7 and I got sized up to an 8!!!! WHAT? He said that I would have to wear bigger shoes because they will help reuce the blisters on the top of my toes and that they would keep toe nails from coming off. Well then I was sold and I am ok with having GARGANTUAN feet for running only......weird! ha ha ha! So $110.00 later.....I got a pair of shoes! I am really happy and I am going to try them on this morning. I also have Les Mills Pump Flow to do and from what I understand it is a Yoga stretch DVD so I will do that after my 5 miles to try these shoes out! Kinda excited but it's cold out there ha ha ha! My first time running in the cold! Ahhhhh! 

I have more things to look forward too! I am going to Trader Joes for the first time AND I am doing Scott Kelby's World Wide Photowalk! Pictures of Provincetown coming soon! 

Have a wonderful day/weekend!

Les Mills day 3 and moody me

Yesterday was my rest day from Pump, I ran four miles on the treadmill and I have to say that it was the most boring freaking run ever! I ran on the treadmill because one of the girls that I am training is a pansy and complains all the time so it was TOOOO windy for her and TOOOO cold for her so we ran inside. That may have been my reason for such a sucky run. By the way I am a certified personal trainer and I train with my "clients" if you call it that and I don't charge them because I couldn't do that.......Yes I do think that I am selling myself short and maybe one day I will stop being so nice anyway ( I am moody today if you already can't tell). So back to the running, yes it was torture and I wanted to get off and I run faster off the treadmill than I do on the treadmill which was really weird.....I run 8.30 - 8.36 by my house and I can't get over a 6.7 on the treadmill which is about a 9:30 mile.....it is the strangest thing. Anyway something isn't calibrated and I am going to say that it is the treadmill LOL.

I was totally craving and I still am CHICKEN WINGS ( I think Bloody Mary is about to visit). One of my co-workers had some buffalo wing pretzels in her desk and shared which I thought was really nice! I totally enjoyed the handful that I ate :D and it saved me from the devil chips! They are these Rice Works chips and I can't eat one serving of them it's more like the WHOLE BAG! They are so good and thankfully they are made with brown rice and they are low in fat so that helps a bit right?!?!?!?

So today was a good day of course I am moody but the more I type the happier I am getting so maybe I need to vent right? I went to work and got off at noon which is FANTASTICAL, I got rid of some of my eBay stuff ($145!!) and I did my day two of Pump. It was the same workout that I did on day one I put more weight on there with the exception of the shoulders and the chest and tricep part where I stayed at 10 pounds like I did last week and for everything else I was comfortable at 15 pounds! I am super excited that I am stronger than I thought I was but at the same time I was working larger muscle groups so there is a huge difference there :)  I really was looking forward to my workout and was pleased that I felt everything burning which I think is an awesome thing right? I mean who wouldn't want to feel a workout in 20 minutes. Here is my before picture that I took on Wednesday and me working out :) Enjoy!!!! I think I may go out on a run to cure this mood!

Commitment

Commitment, what a huge word huh? It can have so many meanings to different people so what is it all about?

I have been having a hard time staying committed to working out on a schedule. If you know me super personally people know that I am not one that likes things out of whack and what not. I like things in a pretty little row, where they are supposed to be, I like things to be done on time, and I prefer a routine.

I have been finding that living in America and not 5 minutes from my job takes a lot of effort to work out. I have to get up at 5:30 for work, then I work all day and come home to cook dinner because most times I am getting hungry as I walk in the door. I am no longer committed to my results, my health, or my fitness/life plan. There has been a shift and I am trying to get it worked out and find a solution to my problem so that I can once again be committed to my life, goals, and desires!

1.) I have to stay focused. I try to do too many things at once instead of doing everything one thing at a time. I need to be more patient and focused.

2.) I need to really remember why I am doing this for the long term.

3.) I am going to start preparing my meats etc on Sunday's and make that a bulk cooking day and eat what I actually set aside.

4.) I am not going to follow I am going to lead myself and family back into the healthy healthful meals.

5.) I am going to be committed to my 5 AM workouts and choose a routine that is between 30-45 minutes 5-6 days a week and stick to that schedule.

6.) Put everything that I have into what I do! :)

This is my before and after and I need to remember WHY I started this journey of health for myself and family!!!!


What is your why? Do you have problems with commitment in a part of your life?

Sleep and weight

I have been thinking of things to blog about and for awhile I have come to a blank slate....writers block I guess.

I started trying to get up at 4:50 in the morning to get my workouts in because now I am getting half of it done at lunch and the other half hour done right after I get home from work or all of it when I get home from work because sometimes 1/2 an hour is not enough time. The Mother in me feels guilty because I am missing out on time with my baby boy and then dinner happens, clean up and bloop it's time for showers and bed time. So that half an hour feels like a lot on the grand scheme of things when really I know that it's not THAT big of a deal. Well, my days are pretty much packed (I know this is an excuse) Here is my day...

5:30 5:45 - wake up and wash up
5:45 - 6:30 - cook C's grilled cheese, make my b-fast and sometimes lunch.
6:30-6:45 - feed C, maybe give him a bath if he peed in bed and get him dressed.
6:50 - 7:30 - Get C to school and get hubs and I to work
7:30-11:30 work
11:30-1:00 Lunch and 30 minute workout
1:00 - 4:00 Work
4:00-4:30 travel home and get C
4:45 get home, change 30 minute workout dinner shower bath for C then have him off to bed at 8:00.
8-10 chillax time sometimes bed by 9:30

So anyway, I started reading up on sleep and weight loss/gain to try and justify my not wanting to wake up in the mornings.

Here is what I read in summary.....

If you don't sleep well you get lazy and being lazy and sleepy causes you to do a number of things including;

getting sugary snacks, drinking more coffee, skipping a workout because you are too tired, getting take out because you don't FEEL like cooking etc.

“It’s not so much that if you sleep, you will lose weight, but if you are sleep-deprived, meaning that you are not getting enough minutes of sleep or good quality sleep, your metabolism will not function properly,” (Web M. D.)

This seems to be me. Sleepy = lazy in my life and that is not how I want to be. Thinking about it now I am super energetic and more patient after I have completed my afternoon workout....so while I feel a little bit guilty, having a little bit of me time in the afternoon seems to work in my favor.

I think that for now (even though I don't want to lose any weight) I will keep to my 1/2 and 1/2 workouts because I would rather give up half an hour than to be an unproductive lethargic Mom to my kiddo and husband they deserve to see the best in me as often as they can and I owe that to myself as well.

One day soon I will find balance with everything and it will all fall into place, but for now the more I think about it this is what seems to work for me.